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I bet I caught everyone off guard with the title, but it's true, I am giving up... I'm giving up depression, pain, solitude, and overthinking. I'm sick and tired of having all of these pent up thoughts about what I don't have and what I have to do to get to where I want. I never really looked at the fact that I have so very much right now. I have a mass of people who care about me. I have love coming at me from all kinds of directions and I was never there to just be grateful for all that I had. I'm sorry. I know many would say that I shouldn't apologize, but it makes me see that I have shunned what I've always had and pushed it aside to have my more pained, darker side to take over, but this time the non-pained dark side is gonna have his day(Ahem, I can lose the pain and what-not, but if you try to take the dark away I will annihilate you. twisted ). xd I'm cutting the "schmoog" act and getting on with life. I'm always all stressed "grr" about life and all like scream Aw, @#$&%$#@#$%&%$&%@&@#$*%^$ scream ! I'm sick and tired of it. All I want is a peaceful time to spend with those that I care about and then some. I am finally happy and blissfully content with my life. I'm sorry it took me so long to figure it out, though.