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DEAR GOD


dear god,

why do u hate me so?
why have made me this way?
why do u let them treat me this way?
have i harmed u in a pass life?
doubt ur very existance?
arent i human too?
cut me...and i bleed
please...make it stop
i dont want it
i dont need it
why do u make me go through it?
help me..please god save me
im disgusting
im ugly
im putred
im nothing
i am....non- exsisting
i am worthless
i dont need any of u devine attention
but i want it
please god
save me
save me
why do u hate me so?
love me
love me
i want to bathe in ur warm light
feel it surrounding me in my sorrow
give me freedom
im locked away
locked away for amusement
r u happy god?
do u like what ive become?
do u love me now?
now that ive hit the lowest of the low?
why?
why do u ignore me?
ignore my pleas of insanity
i long for love
and nothing more
i long for attention
and nothing more
i long for....
life

...and nothing more