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It seems to be happening again. My mood swings are coming back and they are just as bad as they were when they first came on. I'll be perfectly fine all day long with no worries or drama, and then just suddenly for no reason here I am pulling away from everyone, not wanting to be touched, and not wanting to talk. I've been fine for a little bit and I thought it would be better but it's still not. Here I am almost eighteen and I still feel like a helpless, ugly, loser, little girl. I don't know what to do either. I haven't been taking my meds for a few weeks really, but they make me feel sick every time I swallow them. I want to see my therapist almost everyday and I want to be at school because even if I feel bad when I'm there there are people that help to just be around them. I miss Myckel because he is like my rock through all of this. He always helps me through everything, and doesn't just scold me about what I do. He justs wants to help and be there for me. I don't knwo when all of this will end but I just hope so much it will be soon, very very soon.