If you read my last entry you would understand what this entry is about. In last entry i was depressed. I still am. In all honesty i might just be worse. I don't know what it is that's doing all this s**t to me but there's something. maybe it's my fear of seeing my friends and seeing them all different and everything. But i don't want to be afriad of school...yet i am. It just not right.
I forced myself to sleep last night. I had dreams. I haven't had any dreams in a while. I was happy to ave them. I don't remember what they are but oh well i know that they were there. I was happy for a couple of hours in my life. but then my dad woke me and my younger sister up by yelling at us to get out of bed. That screwed it all up.
Then my mom yelled at me today. Oh well i don't mind anymore. My older sis yelled at me last night which woke my mom up which led her to yelling at me. I know i just said i don't mind anymore so the only reason i put this in here is just for those who care to know what's going on in my life. I do know some epopele care about me.
Well i think i'll head onto a better topic. Like my avi. In the arena it's doing well. I've got about a 7.6 in there. people seem to like it. I doubt i'll win though. Most people think it's different than most and that's why they like it. I'm glad. They even bothered to read my little entry to describe my avi. They said they liked that too. I was happy. some peope thought it was crap but i don't mind. You never can get a perfect 10 and you can't ever win. I'll live if i don't win. I mean at least i tried my best. And i can always enter aagin right?
THat's was long but i guess i just need to talk right now ya know. I mean i don't understand most of what i'm talking about but yet i do. Oh yeah danny if you're reading this (though i doubt it) i'm osrryf or being harsh to you last night. I didn't mean to. I just wasn't righht in the head. I'm still not and yes i realize that is no excuse so if you don't wish to forgive me for my words then don't and i'll understand,
Well thank you for taking time out of your life to read this. thanks for caring enough to know what i think of things and how i'm feeling. that makes me feel just that much better about things. Thanks once again.
 heavens_akki · Wed Jan 03, 2007 @ 09:56pm · 0 Comments |
