i don't know why but i'm really depressed now. i can't stand it. my heart feels as if it's as far down as it can go. i don't know why but i feel like crying. I can't stand it. ugh i feel like s**t! My depression has sunk quite low and i can't seem to figure out why. i mean those whom i care about are fine but....i'm not. I don't know what's wrong with me! I can't stand it.
I mean i can't sleep anymore. I now have insonmia. I can't stand it. it makes me feel lonely. I feel far to alone and i can't cure it. I mean i know i have everyone but....i feel alone. I feel scared and dpressed and i feel like a screw up on everything. I can't stand this! Ugh it makes me so angry and sad. -sigh-
I wanna sleep but i don't know how. I can't and i need to. My sleep is the only peaceful time i have anymore. It's the only time i'm not alone...or i don't feel like it. My dreams sometimes let me go places i can't in real life. I wish i knew how to fix up my life. I've screwed up everything.
I fear almost everything nowadays. I fear feelings, not having feelins, being alone...but i can't stop feeling this way. I don't know what it is that did this. I mean i was happy a while agao but now i'm just downright depressed. I might be better in the morning.
Hey sonofsepiroth, deathper, lonewolf_darkness, gaaras_lover, and anyone who goes to school with me, if you guys are reading this i'll probably be faking my happiness. maybe. i cna't help it anymore. i'm slipping under my mask againa dn i don't know how to stop myslf. heh heh well if i ever do find a way out of depressio i'll tell you all.
 heavens_akki · Wed Jan 03, 2007 @ 09:01am · 1 Comments |
