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im sry for the pain ive caused
i dont mean to trouble
its just the way i am
except it
embrace it
hold it
promise to never let me go
as i put this blade to me
tell me that you love me
another night of pain and tears
i wish it would all stop
ill stop this pain
ill stop your madness
no more tears to be shed
dark now consumes me
i feel myself disappear
into a world that you'll never see
forever to be lost
forever to be forgotten
i promise no more pain
as i disappear and vanish from the worlds eyes...
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******** what i have become
screw what you do
i hate when you leave like this
i dont no what the ******** to do
let it end
end it now
i see the red staining the ground
i laugh to myself
and grin as you weep
your death isnt pain
its my pleasurable release....
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alls i wanted was to hear those words
alls i needed was to feel your touch
but no
you couldnt even give me that much
alls i hear are the deafing screams
from the voices inside my head
and all i feel is the pain of the darkness
brining me into its ways
i feel nomore for you
i feel nomore for anything
emotionless i have become
to smile nomore
an to shed not another tear
the dark has free'd
this broken soul
and captivated me into its homicidal ways
this blade will cut deep
that is true
now you feel my true feelings for you...
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i find it kinda funny
i find it kinda sad
but the dreams were i am dying
there the best i've ever had...
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i wrote your name today
i wrote it in a special way
i took a blade
and clenched my fist
then carved it deeply in my wrist
as i die
i wonder why
you ever said
"i love you"
and now that i know the truth
i just wanted to say
"thank you"...
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"i love you is eight letters
but so isnt bullshit"-i hav no clue who rote that -_-;;
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slits on your wrist
scars on your face
gashes on your legs
cover up for no one to see
walk away
leave it behind
continue on living
your life long lie...
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sometimes i wish i could just take this knife, and bleed to death infront of every being that i hate, just to see what they think...
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anger and rage
in your veins
nothings changed
all the same
back and forth through your life
back and forth in your life
he was always there
but did he care?
day and night he was there
but did he care?
until the day you shot the gun
through your head
to end this pain
he was there
but did he care?...