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Well, well, well, i'm back from the east. and oh do i have news to tell....^^ good new not bad!! well i got to spend a hella of an amount of time with my sis amber and my niece abbi. but, not much time with the rest. i saw my nephews after like two years!!! I'm in love. Like real real love love!! (i don't know if that made sense to anyone....lol) The guy i'm in love with is just the best. i get kinda depressed if I don't hear his voice for a while. But i really do think he's the one. Every time I talk to him, i just get this feeling, ya know, the feeling that this was meant to be. Before him, I could never think about "growing up," i really didn't care. I just wanted to stay young forever and just never leave. but with him, i just can't wait to get out and away to be with him. to spend my years and memory's with him. he inspires me to be my best, to be my all. with out him, i would just hate myself and life. he got me to be able to take a picture of myself and not say "god, i look so ugly." My friend heather really does like him. she'd given him the seal of approval the day he said "I'm willing to wait and earn it" she said that proved to her he really did deserve it. and with each breath i take, i dedicate it to him. because with out him, i wouldn't be able to breath, i wouldn't be able to live with the thought that he's not there in my life. but thanks to him, i can, i can live and breath and enjoy what life has to offer. His laugh makes me laugh, it's like a winter mountain, beautiful and breath taking (just like his lips and his eyes) Just looking at him, i want him to take me in his arms and never let me go. I want him to kiss me so passionately, that it takes my breath away for a minute. Not too long ago, we discovered that when we talk, we REALLY lose track of time. A minute to us is an hour to the world around us. But we don't care, we could spend every second of every day on the phone and it wouldn't matter, it would keep us alive. When I see him, nothing will be holding back my passion for him. And we'll spend all day together, just holding each other and talking, maybe watching a couple horro movies together I just know he's the one and i don't care what anybody thinks. I can't really look at another guy the same. Yeah, i can talk to them, but it's just another kind of talk, it's not OUR talk. I'm really writing quite a lot right now....never written this much before... maybe it's because its a topic i'm quite fond of.


To people who hate/despise/or just don't plain believe in love, I'm sorry. I'm sorry your missing out on one of the greatest feelings this mortal world can offer. But I say that you should never give up on it, for it will come. That knight in shining armor will be there quite shortly to sweep you off your feet. Or for you men out there, that girl will be waiting there for you to go over there and say hi. So just do it, and don't be afraid. For the women, don't be afraid to ask the guy out!!! i had to make all the moves. I asked him for his number, I asked him out, and I have to call him (his rents fault, don't think bad of him, only his parents...lol). I remember every great moment of ours and thats what makes life so precious, memories. For your true love awaits, are you willing to go after them?

oh, to my dude Happy 2 Month Anniversary!! I love you!