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yeah, well, ive had about six poems in the past few days. It's amazing on what a little inspiration can do for a girl. I read a coupel of them and they're pretty good. at least, for my taste.

Don't you hate when some people can really ******** piss you off and, yet, if they call you, you go all googly for them and pretend like nothing happened? My quote for that person is a little pic i found:

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Because its true. I know someone who has broken my heart countless times and all my friends tell me he's a b*****d, but then, when he calls and tells me he's sorry, i love him even more. I hate myself for that. I really ******** hate myself. I put my heart on the line and he stabbed it, shredded it, and tossed to a pack of rabid babies that are teething. It's crap i tell you, CRAP!!!!

*sigh* The next trick i will perform is talking about something that actually makes sense in my life!! "O.O Does that even exist?!" Well, my folks, it does! It's called: A JOB!!!! "dun Dun DUN!!" I work at the drive-in movie theater over here. I'm what's called a "runner" which means, i get what ever they want! lol. Candy, snow cones, popcorn, nachoes *shiver*, anything. lol. its a great job, i just got my first pay check: $19.94!!! WHOOOOO!!!! lol.

And next, my friend. Her name has been replaced with a "________". Well, _______ has been quite the buizy bee lately. I've been in dire need of help and she's been kind enough to shove me away. Isn't that nice?! For a week, when i was really confused, i just asked her to talk and she'd be busy. She'd be all like "I'm kinda busy, can i call you later?" and never call. I'd try and stay calm and tell her everything was okay, and whenever she could to call. Well, this past week, i've needed a crapload of ******** help and shes been all like "oh, sorry, i'm talking to chris" or some crap like that and she was like "can i call you later?" and one day i was like "no, i need you!" wow, _______ is like a guy, she needs the answer straight! I can't be all like "but _______, are you really that busy?" But even me telling her "________, i really need you right now" doesn't help her to see that she needs to ******** CALL ME! she put me on hold for five minutes last night before i just ******** hung up! Then, she didn't even call me ******** back. $20 says she was talking to the b*****d chris. WHY?! He has hundreds of ******** friends, why does HE have to take my only goddamn one?!?! I guess its my fault for not making it goddamn clearer! It's my fault for just not going out and crying and just pretending to smile while i walked around in walmart! It's my fault for not telling her that i really needed help! Oh, wait! I DID!! I was pretty much in tears in walmart, i told her that i needed her, i told her to help me! but, does she?! NOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!! ********!!! ******** ******** ******** ******** ********!!!