All my life ive tried to be what others wanted wether it was queit ,innocent,stupid,desperate you name it ive probably done it.Even with my own father whom I havent even seen in several years.Everything I did I did for him if not others I just kept thinking that if I could just make myself pretty today then he would come back . but after years of wondering around in the dark I have finaly found something that has made me happy and although it may not seem like much to others it..he..God is all I dreamed he would be ..all that I could be hes a father figure that I know will forgive me for all that I have done and thought I dont have to be perfect to look beautiful to him and thats all I need to know.I may not be able to touch him or talk to him directly at least not yet but I have grown to love him and as of just resently I have allowed my fears of dissapointing others to interfear with my own happiness my new years resolution is that I will show the world just how much I care disapointment or not Im taking whats left of me.
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