Its funny how someone can walk out of your life so early yet stay in your mind for so long.Ever since my father left our already brocken family 13 years ago I kept telling myself that it was a blessing not to have to walk on eggshells for once in my life.But as the years went on I found myself thinking about him.Why he left where he went and the more I thought about it the more I began to believe that it was me that had ran him away.I tried so hard to remember his face what it was like but I knew that he had been away from me so long that I had lost him forever.I remember once when I was just a kid one special day that we spent together just the two of us.it was the simplest of fun ,a trip to the gas station where we spent the entire afternoon eating chips and chewing on gum looking out at the cars coming in for gas and,although neither of us said a word I remember it being the best day of my life but,I guess that with all the love I gave him my heart just wasnt big enough because within a few months of that day he was gone.Some times Ill visit downtown because my mother said that shed seen him there but looking for him is like chasing a ghost hes always everywhere im not.For the longest time ive told myself I hate him but,...then why is it that i feel as if im trying to earn his aproval with everything I do?
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Alone.
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