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What a boring day today! I've had nothing but angry customers calling to place orders for children's toys. (I work at a toy catalog company). Everyeon wants to get them in time for Christmas, but man, they are being such jerks about it! Just goes to show you how greedy and selfish today's society is. If there's one thing I've learned it's that you never want to get involved in any businees that has anything to do with food or toys, because poeple get really bitchy and mean when they're hungry and when they're getting toys for their kids, lol. It's like dealing with animals, seriously!

Just being bored at work, I guess. Everyone at work found out about the party, but now they all think I got drunk, which is so not true!!! Sill super embarrassed that they guy I like had to take me home....at least no one knows I like him, so I guess that's good, lol. Cuz that would be super awkward, seeing as how every guy I like rejects me, lol. But I guess I can't blame them really. I'd reject me, too. No way would I date a loser like myself, lol. 4laugh

I'm not hearing from Shingo at all. I think it might be time to let him go. My birthday's on January 5th, so I'll wait to see if he calls or sends an e-mail to acknowledge that. If I don't hear from him that day, I will send one last final e-mail a few days after the 5th, to let him know I've ended it. I won't be mean or anything. I'm not really angry, just really hurt and really upset. I feel a bit used, too. I just hope that with the next girlfriend, he talks to her AS MUCH AS POSSIBLE! Or esle that relationship will fail as well. "Communication is the most important part of a relationship. IIT'S THE GLUE THAT HOLDS IT ALL TOGETHER!" If anyone is reading this, please, PLEASE remember that forever and always! Sex is not the most important part!!! scream It's the communication....

I feel a little crushed from it all, though. We were supposed to get married. I had waited my whole life for that moment, just to get married to the right guy, and to spend the rest of my life making him happy, and giving him lots of children. That's all I have ever wanted....and it's the one thing I'll never have.....

It's ok.....I don't look good in a big puffy white dress, anyway. I wanted to look like a geisha at my wedding ^_^. But that's what Halloween is for, lol....

Saturday is my last day of work at Sensational Beginnings. I'm glad to go, though. Everyone here talks about how they're getting married and having kids, and there's children's stuff everywhere....it's so depressing. I can't wait to get to work on making more music. whee I've almost got my first song done. Once I get a few done, I'll create a Myspace for it. Probably a Newgrounds Audio Portal account, too.

Ok, I really should get back to work. I'll update again soon. See u! domokun (Can someone please tell me who Domo is???!!! lol)

Can you spot Libby at the Gay Bar?---> wink wink wink sweatdrop wink