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Today, I was happy from the start. For once in a long while, actually. I talked with Bobby and Scott and Katrina, which was always interesting. They're cool like that. Then, I was actually ready for my 5th period English test, and think I did good on it. Then, I watched Spirited Away in Japanese class, but was basically talking to Chris and Holly the whole time. It was nice to feel friendship like that again. Then, knowing that it was a short day, I sat with Holly and her group of friends again. But everytime I do, it still feels...awkward...except with Holly. Everyone else, maybe not Kylie or Spenser as much, it's so weird hanging around them. I feel like they still loath me, so I don't try to even talk to them, but just smile when they acknowledge my existance. So, like usual, I sat with them, but listened to my MP3. I can tell that Holly really does care about me, but the others, it's hard to say. But about 10 minutes before the bell rang for the last period to start, I decided to go to my choir room (aka my next class) and sit there and listen to my MP3. It was nice to be peaced. Soon enough, the bell rang, and everyone started to show up, and of course, Rick. From the moment he walked in, he seemed anxious to talk to me...like, I thought it'd be just like usual, where he would raise an eyebrow to show he sees me. But he was very different. He must of had a mood swing over night or something, because he was acting like when we were dating...joking around, smiling whenever we made eye contact, laughing, just enjoying things. That made things sooooo good for me. He even tickled me once when he walked behind me to get something from his binder, laughing at my usual reaction. It was so cool to see him smile at me again! From that first moment of talking at the bell, to the end of the class, my mood changed completely! I was laughing, smiling a whole bunch, just enjoying life again! It's amazing what one person smiling at you can do. I felt so...needed...whenever he smiled at me. He kept on looking at me during class. It felt like old times (the good old times), and man, did it feel good! I still love him, and if he decides to ever ask me out again, I will definitely accept, but right now, if he's happy with things, I'll let him be. I still haven't seen Bailey at all...though I don't mind *wink*, but I'm just curious... Even if she's here, if I don't see her, everything seems to go good. Though I feel bad for disliking her so much, I really can't help it. Youth group went awesome, like usual. My friends and buds were there (of course), and learning more about Mary this time, which was pretty cool. I work at Tree Lot again tomorrow, 4-9. Can't wait for that! I'm so thankful for Melissa and how she's always been there for me. My super awesomely cool fellow assassin! I pray that her family will find a good solution to their Christmas situation. That's gotta be tough to deal with... Anyways, I better go. See ya!