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My gpa (grandpa) is moving to Idaho extremely close to us, hopefully.
It's been terribly difficult, because we know God wants him here, and my gpa knows it, but several times he's backed away, several times he's been such a butt about it, and to make things worse, he's a pessimist.

He is such a jerk now. It's very depressing, because he used to be one of those relatives that you just want to hang with all the time, the person you just can't get enough of. But now, he acts like we haven't existed, that we're not even related to him, that we don't have feelings. He talks about one member of my family to another member, and acts like we should agree with him on everything. He's racist, which is my BIGGEST pet-peeve, and he holds grudges on EVERYONE, yet complains about things that have happened over 30 years ago, and claims he doesn't hold on to things in the past. And just acts like the world is a horrible place. Not taking credibility for any of his actions, and saying everything bad that happens is our fault.

My family has been there for him ever since I could remember, yet his dog is his rock of life. He says that his dog was the only thing that stopped him from committing suicide several times, "Many times I felt like just crashing my car, but then I thought about Sugar [his dog]. If I die, then she'll die because nobody would feed her, because nobody would know I'm dead. I just couldn't do that to Sugar." What about what my family?? We love him so much, yet he acts like we don't exist! I'm sick of it, I'm sick of him, but I know God wants me to show His love to him. So I will. It's the kind of situation of: I love him to death, but I can't stand him.

There have been so many things happen that just makes you feel horrible. For a guy who doesn't want to hurt us, he sure has an art of doing it. PLEASE God, help him and my family through this!!

Well, right now, he's living with us in our house, until his house is ready for him to move in. scream gonk PLEASE help me through this God!! Every time I think about him, my head and heart just boil (thinking of all the hurt he has caused my family), so we've tried to stay clear of him most of the time. Sometimes, we just have to get away from him, so we make an excuse to leave the house. Yet we aren't shunning him, so that's good, I guess.

Long story short, PLEASE pray for my gpa and my family and I through this situation.

Prayers and Love, In Christ Forever,
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