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"I have something to give to you," Beatrice said to her closest friend. She was visiting her friend after one of her wild and dangerous stunts.
"Great... what is--,"she coughed, "it?" The friend's name was Jasmine but Beatrice always called her Jaz.
"Well, since you nearly cut off your arm and scared me half to death again, I just got you a new CD. Something to calm you down." Beatrice felt a constant pain in her stomach, like a sword from a strong knight. Her friend made her want to cry but she hated crying in front of anyone but herself.
"Who's the artist?" She responded weakly.
"The one and only Karen Feltly, your fave." She tried smiling but the pain stayed in her heart and stomach. She felt as if she knew that she was going to lose her friend faster than she should.
"I so want to scream out 'yay' but they say that I should be careful because it's not just my arm." Beatrice couldn't say anything, and Jasmine looked away guiltily. It was the last that she could take. Beatrice threw the bag with the CD at the foot of the hospital bed and ran out of the room. Ran out of the hospital. And exploded with hysterical crying. Beatrice said to herself, Am I not a good friend? Have I not made my friend's life good enough so that she doesn't want to die or do something dangerous? What is it? Does she not know that I care so so much? Millions of thought swirled in her head. She had eventually ran all the way to a close gas station. Using her cell phone she called her other friend who was also a close friend of Jaz's. The phone rang several times and when she thought he wouldn't answer he did.
"Hello?"
"Hey," She was nearly choking on her words because of the tears, "Can you come pick me up from the Texas gas station around the hospital?"
"Are you ok?"
"Not completely, I just came from seeing Jaz and I need you to take me to my spot."
"Ok, I'll be there quicker than a cheetah racin' a car."
"Hehe," She smiled some, "Thanks." She hung up the phone and he did come pretty quick, all of them lived close to the Hospital. The spot that Beatrice metioned was a little forest that felt like her own little world and even gave it a name. Ron, who was Beatrice's other friend, knew that if Beatrice wanted to go to her spot she was pretty sad, needed cheering up, and couldn't think straight. At times like this it was dangerous for her to be home or around weapons, she found that out after Jaz's fifth and sixth stunts.
Beatrice ended up with a broken leg when she was left at her house when Jaz hurt herself for the fifth time. She fell purposely off the banister over a staircase leading 10 steps down. It could have been worse though. And the sixth time left her in a coma for two months while Jaz broke her leg.
This was the moment, the day that changed it all. She was at war with herself and she wasn't going to admit that she needed help. She loved her friend and couldn't handle her being hurt or sad. she replayed what she thought in her head. Did she say she loved her friend? She knew it wasn't a friendly love a deeper, more emotional love. But it felt so different from any time. She had an eerie feeling about this day.

That day, poor Beatrice submitted into the "happy house." She tried killing a groundhog...