It starts again. The Stress that makes me a jerk face. =|
I would imagine the only reason why i feel this way is because im repeating my yearly routine of slacking off and not keeping on track with school work. Not only that but for reaons on which I don't know why, my mind likes to put negative thoughts for everything.
I'd like to think everything will be fine and all i have to do is put forth effort.
I'm sure everything will pull together soon though. I can only hope that the people I have been rude around or venting on them will understand I truely do not mean for that to happen.
I'm just that typical person that likes to be sorry for everything.
Always thinking I can make things better for everyone.
I like to hold alot of emotions in for long periods of time too.
Maybe that's why occassionally I lose control of how I feel inside,
and let the littlest things bother me. It hurts. It really does..
It is for sure in my veiw I am not perfect.
I will advise you not to feel Sympathy for me because it is no ones fault but mine.
I am ruining my own dreams.
But Truely there is only one person that makes my life complete and great.
The one person who has made my dream come true.
Russ is the only one. He is the only one that truely makes everything better. heart
I love him so much and nothing will ever change that. Nothing in this whole universe
