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This is just a rant I needed to type out, and post to make myself feel better to just ignore it, mmkay people?
Mom, just shut the ******** up. What do you want from me? Blood!? I can't do everything the way you want me to do it!! I am my own person, and I think differently than you do! I do things at my own lazy pace, don't like it? Learn to deal with it! I know you want another Thania in the family, but while I'm a lot like her I am NOT her. I'm not as neat, and as much as a perfectionist as her. And I'm not going to try to be. And yeah, I love you, but just SHUT UP! I don't need to have you tell me, what you've told me a million times before.
And tonight, I wanted to share a happy moment with you, but no, you had to go again and try another guilt trip on me. Go ahead! It only makes me think about how stupid you're constant fighting with me is! I mean, c'mon, I know you're stressed out from work, and you have reason to be, but don't act like you know every single thought that's going through my head. You may know about me, but you don't know ME, at least not yet, and not the way I'd like you to know me. But no, since you've given me this image of what you want me to be I, of course, want to please for some goddamn reason! And that's just seriously ******** up. Now, I don't want to be mad at you, but you just keep picking on every little mistake you see me do, and I'm getting ENOUGH of it from Papi!! So please, just SHUT that big HOLE in your LOUD MOUTH, and let me do my own thing. You've taught me right and wrong, so I know the difference, just let me do it at my own pace! Okay!? Besides work and the money crisis I dont' know what's getting you and Papi so cranky, especially with ME, but please, just ******** off.
-deep breath- I feel MUCH better now. I love having a journal at times like this. <3
 iLurk · Fri Nov 17, 2006 @ 02:24am · 0 Comments |
