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i had another dream last night. i had a little disaggrement with bastian last night but we worked it out. I went to bed and then dremps about me taking bastian to the gym. we sat their watching the assembly and one of the students asked if someone would coem down to the floor. when i looked at the student he was one of the dumb asses that will hurt people in any ways possible. so bastian decides to go down. i warn him about that guy and he says dont worrie. when he gets down their i watch and see what looked like the guy kiss him. i suddenly got angry. i picked up the kid in front of me and threw them off the bleachers. when he was done i marched down to the row he was at now and asked him. so what was that about. he said something i cant remember and i cryed and rant off in to the cafateria. i ran to the courner and cryed worse then i have ever befor. when i looked up he was walking toward me. i yell "WHY" really loude and he said it wasnt me. when i looked at him i got so pissed at what he said that i pulled out a knife and stabed my self in the chest. killing my se;f on the spot. after that he didnt seem to care i died. as if i were a burdan to him. i woke up and felt really angered and upset as if he really did that or something. i just feel like bastian is mine and no one elses and if anyone trys something i will kill them.*sigh*