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As i said before ive been happy all week. but theirs always the other side of the pillow. ive still been having a bad day too but instead of i effecting me like it normaly doese i just have been ignoring it. now its time to talk about this side of things. Im currently struggling with my with this eating probablem that no one knows exactly what it is. ive had it for a little more then a year and learned to cope with it. If i havnt told you what this probablem is its quite simple. my stomach has become very sensitive to anything that might cause it stress or discomfort. I cant be in a car on extended occasions. another thing is i havnt seen my dad in a long time (not exactly sure how many but months i have to say). Im getting the feeling no one cares what i do online but two people. (and those people know exactly who they are) Im being told to date a sophomore since their has been a sudden growth in the population of gay people with them. my friends push it but i dont like any of them, ANY of them -.-. but at least i know in my heart that i can trust bastian and i can stay true to one another with no reason for temptation. My most current bf is working alot and cant hardly talk anymore and im starting to wonder if their will ever come a day where i will finally meet him. crying (sorry need to slow down my eyes are watering) ok lets see. the next thing is the eminence stress from my counselors and teachers about graduating my classes and looking at COLLEGE -.- hence the many noghts in my back and neck areas X_X. my aunt and grandparents are divorcing (just like my mom did a few years before) and my aunt moved out here with us. im worrieing my mom and step dad are over working them selfs because we hardly make enough to keep the stuff we have like cable internet. and yet my mom wont let me worrie about it. so this is pretty much whats going on behind the sceans and yet i dont want people to think of me as. In fact this is why i dont act based on my current situation.
 vivi is my master · Thu Nov 22, 2007 @ 07:36am · 2 Comments |
