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i would like to open with a question. why is it people are so selfish? ive been trying my hardest to maintain what life i have and go threw one of the biggest changes in my life.(life after graduation) and im not getting much help with it at all. i feel like running away some times just getting away from all the pain but it doesent seem to work out. my brother said something to me today. he told me that everything that goese wrong in this house is My fault. how can everything be my fault? all I want to do is be done with school and be happy and out of stress... wtf doese he do all day? play video games and nag to me about how I'M doing with MY school work... im also trying to actually talk to my boyfriend with out him asking me to drop the conversation. I love him to death but I want to at least just talk to him and have a discussion with out him thinking were gona have a fight... and why is it everyone including my mom wants me to graduate this year instead of next year. get it done this week because They know it will be easier for me. i mean how do they know what i want... what i want is everyone to leave me the f alone already... let me BE!!!i honestly dont feel like im an 18 year old... like i can make my Own decisions in life now and i have to suffer my own consequences afterwards... i feel like such an a** hat right now. im currently up at 1:01 in the morning on a sunday night with school tomarrow, that im not even suppose to be at since im a senor because i cant sleep in my own bed with my brother naging at me and my mother changing things around me making life HARD... maby ill go hide in a corner and everyone could just forget about me. stop bothering me and let me be... what i want to know is why? why do people have to act this way and starts stuff they dont need to. why do people have to be so ignorant and do what they think is right with out even consulting what the person thats directly effected would want? Why doese everyone else have to run my life? why cant everyone just leave me the ******** alone?!?!?!?!...so i leave these questions to anyone of you that read this. can you answer these questions for me? help me to better understand it. while i walk around a brainless zombie being pushed around by everyone else and being uncared for... crying