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Nothing ever stops my mind from thinking all these things
the pain and sadness that results from them
I hate wehn this stuff is happening
it's something that i cannot take
please help me stop them
I think why do i keep hurting myself this way
this comes from the pain of my life all over again
put all my feelings on the line
with the hopes that you would realize
but instead of that u made it worst
I took all these things and put them back again

it will always be their now

seeing your face
the pain come back again
i remember when i told you how u laughed at me
that was all that went through my mind back then
the thoughts slowly took my mind away
i knew as it left i lost it forever then
and everyday i stop myself from losing it again
cus the need to be free
is all that is inside of me no mind no soul just the pain in me

it's happening again today

And now
that pain is all thats part of me
it will never part from me
it's all that i have left with me
losing that pain is my only fear
I can't live without it inside of me
I've given up at life itself
I've let that pain take over me

Get it out of me
Gimme my life i want it back again
I gotta try harder to be happy again
instead of pondering on my pain that is happening
I've left inside long enough
i have to let it all out
just to be alive again

I've let myself become traped inside of me
I've let myself become lost in all my thoughts
Giving up on my own life
I've let myself become everything that i ever hated
now i must try to set my self FREE