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hi, 1st entry! yayy, i guess.. ok, i'll start by saying there is only
one guy for me, and that guy is louis prince. he plays guitar,
lead vocals in his band the defective silence, and he has this
real cute hair. i love him so much , but its not just because of
what he looks like and how well he plays, its because if you have
a problem, he wil talk to you. he will just sit and listen and really
listen, not just smile and nod. and he can really feel what you're
going through, or help you get through anything, because he's
had troubles of his own.i think his mum died a few years ago,
and he's coping really well. i feel so sorry for him, but he doesn't
talk to me anymore. its like hes forgotten that i exist.. crying and
its hurts me so bad...

ps. an extremly anoying thing. xp i have a boyfriend who i dont
love, and that is a serious issue for me. but he really loves me, and
i cant leave him because i really dont want him to cry in front of me,
because i'll just feel so guilty, and i'm afraid i might hurt myself
because of it. all this is affecting my school life and how i'm acting
around other people, like my best freind becca. she can listen some-
times, and i've told her not to tell anyone, but on the first day she told
three people. sometimes i resent her, but i feel like i have enough
enemies right now. evil [sigh]. i cant imagine how it could really
get any worse.. i think ive written enough for tonight.