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before i start, if forsaken reads this, you didn't have to read a lot of my january 7th blog [if u did that is]..haha

oh and to readers [if any]....same goes for this and teh rest, you don't have to read all. XP but it makes me feel special. hahahax

woa...i have a blank notepad on my desktop [usually, there's a few filled with like blogs/thoughts/funny stuff i find/blah. so, usual, running, but i feel worse cuz i missed like wedneseday and i'll miss today to.. u.u so sad man! i gotta make it up somehow...i swearz...la lala. just trying to avoid doing homework/lazy, i'll probly do it at like 4:30 or 4:45am...i get to wake up at 8am!! wait....i mean 7:45am...seems like a lot..but if i sleep at 4, then, it's still just 3hrs sleep. =.= sure..past two days [including last night], i get over 12hrs sleep, now, i just "even" it out by getting less. *looks outside*. could be lil sunny/gloomy today. I WANT IT SUNNY DAMNIT! then in summer.... "I WANT IT COLD AND RAINING DAMNIT!" lol. so...bleh. i sit here, on this evil computer chair hurting my back and not finishing up my biology/japanese hw. >LO darnit...japanese....meh. lol. la lal a.

it was so sad...like wednesday, Mrs. Jones [my biology teacher~great one/interactive/fun/blah blah], got a letter, sent to the SUPERINTENDANT. it's from a student saying that she wasn't teaching properly/bleh! i mean...that's wrong. well, sure, you're upon you're own opinion, but shouldn't you tell/speak with the teacher first? and she said it's like playing with her life~teaching--which she loves! i was hecka sad..just watching her, sharing her reflection of last semester, showing everything that she had to teach us withh, the books, worksheets, the main book. she even reads the book and takes out notes for us, because we have a lot to cover. and even uses her own pocket money to provide some of the labs and materials [paper,soap,paper towels]...accepts late work, easy to speak to. i felt like i wanted to cry. BLAH!! *sigh*. i don't like seeing people sad. someoen said she was crying in some other period. my gosh...it's sad...your life work, being put on the line. she even said she'd be happy to speak to us if we had any problems, or constructive critisism. ~sucks! blah....so, we're "buckling down", and letting us take our own notes in our book and section reviews/questions [which i think are easy, actually, all hw is..but it's just that i'm too lazy...haha...sad for me! >L:O]. so yeah...i felt bad, like it's partially our responcibility. iono u.u..

so yeah...my problems? let's see..iono. just feeling lazy is a problem. i don't think i need the laptop anymore, probly just to type and then maybe i'll print the crap in school next semester [gets Mrs. (forget her name)], in Computer Careers (ROP?), and she lets us print stuff biggrin !! lol. so, i'm planning to do a total makeover in my room, to make more space and to get rid of junk, but still keep memorable stuff locked up in a tub i'll buy/find/blah somewheres~to put in closet. but, i need to pick up my grades. and in school, i just go there to do nothing...too lazy in fact, to do my hw and some cw in class! yeah..blah...blah ...blah..i always say i'm going to fix that, but first i have to get EVERYTHING straight. >LO blah. lol. room, hw, schedule. that's why i always like the "end" of things in school. like then, i get a new start! =D

i m.....have been talking on cellie to much. swear, it's like more than an hour a day! ok...3...haha. >:O blah. must cut that to..and um...um..um...yeah! i can limit it till i'm done with work or till weekends, cuz school DOES GO FIRST...but i can have occasional music. >.<

yeah, my "master plan". haha. of course, yeah! CAN'T WAIT TILL FEBRUARY! Cheryl gets her liscence, fresh start in 2nd semester/3rd quarter, and i get to go to gym for 3months! >:O world domination! hahahax. j/k. it'll be nice to see a nice clean room, to motivate me, and to like, be in control of my own life, instead of just fixing it as it goes....to attempt to plan it. blah blha blah

wasting my time....i watched vh1 again [it's always freaking there..]like showing britney spears! llol. it's like saying she wana be a mom within this year..someone in there's like "yeah, the biological clock is ticking, she's turning 24!!!!". haha...still young! lol. before that it wassomehting like "Dating" something? bout celebs and their many relationships. yes, we're so powerful, we can make britney spears broke, if we only boycott her stuff. but NOOOOOO lol. and 'sides, we still have teh whole world in awe drooling over her. la la la. ~incuding other stars.

people make the world go round. round and round, and round. swear...with all the roundness going around, it's suprising it hasn't been eroded much. lol.

la lal a. i need new music! >:O. lol. all i have is old classical/old hip hop/electronica/pop/country/ blah!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! someone ship me a cd of any kind. lol.

UHM....let's see....depression~ oh, just love saying that word, it has a certain 'tounge' to it. deeeeeee-prehhhhhhh-sssshhhhhh-eeeeeeeoooooo-nnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn lol. uh.....yeah. sure, i feel sad, but that's only because i allow myself to be, but it'll take a while to um...um....'avoid/prolong' it even further. =D. i mean, wanting what you only wish for without going/working towards it is just dumb. XP. yes, world peace, would rock..if you change the minds of the people's anger/hatred/despiseness/old teachings and SHOW, NOT FORCE your ways onto them and their families...it'll be possible for at least one person to want to change. >:O. which takes time, of which we've still wasted just trying to keep guard with machine guns making sure that nobody shoots, as if we're like a barrier or something. >:O

what else to i have to speak of? I'M TIRED! lol. i'm a lazy monkey, and BLAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH. lol.

i got inu yasha movie #3 to watch, but nope, didn't watch it....oH FRUIT. i forgot to return gravitation to...to someone else. but whatever, i need to return those. even though i didn't watch them psh. stupid a** uly. lol. i gots maplestory... mapleglobal.com it is? well... online-free mmorpg. did i mention it's FREE? haha. like gunbound and all other mmorpgs from korea. la la la.let's seee...i think uhm..what else? i want to duplete my anime/manga collection till only a few series/stuff remain. i mean, it's better in a friend's hand than in mine, cuz it just sits there. i need someone to re-watch teh dvds i have with. i don't like watching alone. and with manga, it takes me a year to re-read it, cuz i'd almost forget it by then. bleh.

WHAT ELSE?!!!!! i havent written anything...
oh, i need to do situps, which i said i'd do like 6hrs ago...haha...i probly won't do any or just do like less than 20. BLAAAAAAAH. ok, i relax for 20more min, then i do hw. X3 bye bye. loves ULY!!!

oh yeah! "love". that serious relationship stuff. why should i even be introduced to it? i mean, sure, mom & dad family values. but i mean, i'm still guna wait till after highschool or college or whatever. but i can't wait forever! so, i adopt at age 25. hahahax. but it's said if you haven't experienced anything, what's the point of trying to do it in the first place? well, i want someone to grow old and have kids with. not really to "make out"/suck each other's hand's in! lol. so, i wait for long time, and keep this should i say 'mature/old/not normal' dream~till i get real older, cuz i still have much to learn and enjoy. =D ~always wanted twins...quick birth of two for the 'wife', so, no more kids. haha. ;D hahahax. X3 <3 maybe a lil on that when i have an actual date before senior year. ^~^ cuz i grow slowly, seriously. i shoulda been held back a year. ok, enough, time to be lazy for a lil longer, bye!!!!

p.s.my tummie hurts =.= screw situps, i need food.