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October 4, 2006
Last night I ended up talking to Eric for several hours again. XD We always get into these really long conversations. We were talking about how stupid it is that minorities get all these advantages and white people don't, and that it's okay for someone to say racist things to white people but not to any other race. We both agree on how stupid all that is. And this is something I can see from two point of views since I'm part white and part hispanic. And I just see how unfair and rediculous things like this are. We talked about some other stuff too, we both have the same favorite colors. XD And we were talking about some of those dumb websites that have those nasty pictures people try to trick you into going to, like goatse and things like that. And about how dumb it is that people think they're cool for living in the ghetto when really it's basically like they think they're cool because they're poor. Yeah I dunno how we even get in these conversations we just do. I finally went to sleep. Eric hasn't been on today I don't think because he went somewhere, he messaged me on Myspace. Kaz said he wanted to play that video game again, the one he's always playing, because other people are getting ahead of him and he doesn't want someone to say what happens or whatever. I was really upset, I wanted him to stay and talk to me, I don't mind if he goes and plays sometimes but he always plays for hours and I don't like it. I like for him to talk to me, I want to spend time with him. And I told him that my exboyfriend has been talking to me more than he has, and it's true. I also told him that Eric had told me that the type of guy most likely to neglect their girlfriends were video gamers. He said that was a stereotype but hey, he was wanting to play his video game more than spending time with me. He acted like he didn't care about this stuff, but maybe he did, because I called him when he went to play, and he actually answered, and stayed on the phone too. That makes me really happy. What didn't make me happy was that he spent most of the time talking to his friend rather than me, so I kind of just listened to bits and pieces of their conversation, but I did get him to talk some. I guess it's hard for him to talk on the phone, or maybe it's just me. It's too bad I can't have a meaningful phone conversation with him like I do with Eric, but then, I think it's actually easier for me to talk to Kaz online than Eric. I'm not really sure. Just seems that way. But Kaz stayed on the phone the whole time he played, which was at least two or three hours. That's probably the longest I've been on the phone with Kaz. And when his phone started to die he said he'd come back to the computer once it died, and he did. So at least he cares. A little while ago someone IMed me trying to figure out who I was, saying I was on her Buddylist. I thought her named looked familiar but I couldn't remember either. We kept trying to figure out where we knew each other from, I mentioned several things, including Gaia, and she mentioned that her friend SwordNamed Truth goes on Gaia, and I was like, "Oh you know him! That's my boyfriend!" XD Anyway after that we were able to figure it out, she said she talked to him on her other screen name and I knew that screen name because it was still on my Buddylist. I figured out she was someone from Kaz's old AOL group he'd had, even though she couldn't remember, and she was the one who he'd been helping with Japanese because she was going to Japan, and she said she was there now. So mystery solved. Someone else I haven't talked to in a few years. These people just are popping up LOL. But Kaz has been talking to her, she just forgot who I was. XD So we talked about school and stuff for a while until she had to go. And as for math class today, well that was so stupid. The teacher was sick, so he came in, passed out a few papers, told us to do them and then left. So of course people were just telling each other all the answers. I figured out one of them and let everyoen else do the others. I didn't know how to do them anyway except for the one I did. I didn't even get all the answers, I don't know if anyone bothered even doing them all. A lot of people left the room to eat and stuff, it sucks, we could have gone home if we didn't have that crap on Wednesday. One guy had his laptop. I should have brought the laptop, it seems like when I bring it I don't need it, then I don't bring it and I do need it. But Kaz was asleep anyway. I checked with my cellphone. But still I wish I'd had it anyway, or at least my DS. So since everyone was bored, this girl started talking about her redneck racist dad, and telling stories about him and stuff, and then about how she'd bought some pipe for drug smoking and how her mom found it and how she hangs out with her drug dealer and how she gets free drugs for being a girl. Hey, same concept we use with Flyff. Get free items for being a girl, and guys can take advantage of it too. I'd rather get free items in an MMORPG than free drugs. And the more this girl talked, the dumber she sounded. I didn't say anything because I'm not mean and I don't want people to dislike me, but geeze. It pisses me off that these kind of people, who don't care about themselves and do drugs and crap, can get into college, while here I am struggling with a math disability and trying my hardest to get through this stupid class, where I actually care and don't do things to mess myself up. I'm in this stupid math class, which is just a stupid review class we're forced to take if we didn't pass the test to get into college, because I have a learning problem, but people like her, she's in it because she screwed her brain up herself. She shouldn't even be in college. That's how I feel about these people. I dunno there was just something about the way she talked and told her story, just just seemed dumb or something. People were laughing at her story, but I don't know if they were laughing with her or at her, probably a combination of both. I mean it was amusing. But geeze. And that stupid b***h teacher, she came in and gave us an assignment that was impossible. She didn't even know how to do it and so since she didn't understand it, she assigned a different paper, but she writes all the crap on the board so I didn't notice! Neither did the guy I was working with, until we were nearly done with the first paper, which was impossible and so we were just guessing. So then we had to do the other paper. And of course by that time there wasn't enough time to finish that, that one wasn't easy either, none of these things are, they're all harder than the text book and the tests, and it's just so pointless. So we both turned in a half done paper and left. It probably wouldn't have mattered if I'd skipped. I was going to if the whole class did but they decided not to, it's too bad too. I guess I'm not leaving home without my laptop from now on, especially Wednesdays. x.x The dumb thing is, I shouldn't even need it Wednesdays.
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