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For a time, i thought i could trust you, thought you were my friend. I realise now, that was all a lie. You never wanted to help me...just watch as i fall ever deeping into despair. For this...I hate you. For this...i can no longer trust those around me. For five years, you said you were my friend, and for five years, you've lied. I hope that you read this and are aware of what you've done. I lived for to long now, with everyone pretending to be my friend. We're they all just decieving me. Taking pity on me? I question how you will react when you read this...will you know who I'm talking about, will you even really care. Hmph...I doubt it. For in truth you are your father...the same careless jackass who's only looking out for himself.

In times of great trouble, when all others turned me away, you were there to listen, to give advice. You may not have fully understood it...but the fact that you seemed like you wanted to listen, made me respect you more then anyone else. Now...that respect...that trust, is gone. I remember asking you to keep a secret for me...what did you do? You told them. I question how much you've actually told to other people. How you must hate me, I wonder what i did to to deserve this. I've made fun of you, but i've told you time and time again...I don't mean it. You backstabbed me..tried to turn others against me. For this, i can't, nay i won't forgive you. When the others ask why i feel i have to leave this place and all my "friends" behind, tell them it's because I was betrayed by one of my best friends. Tell them, that because of this. I'm not coming back. Tell them it was you, who made me flee. I doubt you will even notice when i'm gone, you'll probaby be happy. Now, that I've left, you can finally do what you want. I end this entry now, my back is turned to you. I shall give you a passing glance and maybe a "hello." I ensure you though, that is merely for show, because, you are not the friend i once knew, now...you are just like the rest . To you the betrayer, there is no fogiveness, just solitude. Enjoy the darkness, as i once did. And live with this, live with the thought that because of you, I feel i must leave this place and never come back.