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My head feels as though it is about to explode and I don't know whether to trust the words, actions and feeling of some of the many that are around me.....I love my family, friends and lover deeply, but I do not know whether to trust some of their beguiling steps toward me....I hear words adn see actions and try to feel towards these things, but....slowly, bitterness is taking hold of all that I feel and I am slowly pushing myself away from everyone without them knowing it.....I ask time in and time out, day in and day out, surise to sunset, What should I do?, but I get nothing in reurn...Nothing from myslef nor from the all around me...I'm so very close to just giving it all up, shutting everyone out, and probably disappearing only to be found in a dirty ditch somewhere or the next....I'm starting to just not care and lose respect for everything that I tried to build up around myself and within myself.....Just a mask is all that is left of this once great warrior. A mask to be put on and have a character be portrayed on a stage with no batttle, just comedy....With everyone laughing at me.....Heed these words as the message of a slowly dying, broken young man.