Define family, we all have our own unique definition. Mine was a group of people you love and respect, those who share your pain, your laughter, sadness, happiness... In other words, my friends. To me i always thought we'd all be there for eachother no matter what.... I guess this is one of those times where i was wrong huh. To me it's like a half of me is missing. I always think "where are my brothers? Why did they leave us? I thought you were suppose to protect and love your sisters as much as we did you..." When i went to go visit them in the room where they played smash... I saw freshman who resembled all of us... i thought "have we been replaced? no....they wouldnt do that...they love us like we love them" but that was a stupid thing for me to do... go in denile... It struck me when i was worrying about them "you guys should come outside with the rest of us. You know spend time with us like one family, get some fresh air, nice healthy food-" yea i was cut off by Michael "Why are you so childish, just go away, cant you see we've replaced you guys?! We dont need you anymore!" That moment i knew we were never going to all be one family again... I guess im jelous in a way. Thinking 'that should be us laughing and playing with them... but its not us...' It feels like being stabbed with a knife by each of em with them smirking at you while you do it, because im being hurt by the ones i cared about deeply. But in a way if they want do seperate from us, i guess all birds hafta leave the nest someday, we cant all be sheltered and huddle together like we used to... But my love for my 'family' will never die, because each of you have seriously changed my life one way or another.
~ heart xlilsnowfairyx
 LadyLavali · Wed Sep 06, 2006 @ 08:30am · 3 Comments |
