|
Ok, so I have come to the conclusion that I can't avoid my journal any more.
So, to make me (and everyone else feel better, I'm posting in it agian)
Ok, so the first couple of weeks of school have been going ok. Not great, but not horrible either. To say that I'm completely miserable would be a lie, though not a very big one. Due to the classes I'm taking, I have hours of homework a night, and I have been completely shut off from all of my friends. At least last year I had one class with Kasey. Now I have no classes with any of my friends....except for Brad. I hate it. Especially now that theres no Sammi-kun to walk the rectangular circle with to rant during lunch to get my feelings out. So, this is now my only outlet.
I've been getting the cold shoulder lately....from everybody....like I did something and no one will even tell me what it is. I feel completely ignored most of the time, like people have to actually take time out to talk to me. I think Lauren is mad at me for some reason. Every time she comes up to me and kasey, she always talks to kasey, but i rarely ever even get a hi or a bye. Her and kasey go on chatting like theres no tomorrow while I stand off to the side and try to join in, but get no response what so ever. Buck dosn't even talk to me anymore. I'll be like "hey buck" and he'll just look at me like I'm an alien or something so grotesque that he can't even think enough to scream. Seriously, the only people I talk to are Brendan, Erika, Ginny, Josh, and Christine. Those aren't exactly close friends, but for some reason, they're the only ones I have around left to talk to. This school year is gonna suck if it keeps up with this rate.
My classes are hard as hell, well, except for Mr. Chappell's u.s. history class, thats ones alright. But the others are rediculous. I don't know if its because I'm a junior or if its my ap teachers or what, but I'm having to work my a** off to keep up....especially in algebra 2. I've already had 13 tests and its only the 2nd week of school.
On the brighter side, I might be getting a part time assistant job at carlton mercedes, where my mom works, they need an assistant in parts/service for about 2 months. Its in a different office, so I won't be working with my mom and it'll be from 4-6 every other day or so. They'll pay me cash for every hour that I work, so that'll be nice. It'll be a pain, but I need the money. I might be going to france with the french class this year over the summer so I have to save up. Plus, I might be going to europe with my mom as my senior gift and to florida with the history class this year, so I really need some cash. I might be quitting lacrosse. My heart really isn't in it anymore. So many damn annoying freshmen and 8th graders have joined that they don't even need me any more. I think I'll spend that money on music lessons instead. It'll be more productive besides. I might be joining the tallon team this year at school aswell. Either that or Key Club, just to give me something to do, so between homework, getting my restricted license (which is only about 2 weeks away), school, music lessons, and key club, I'm going to be a damn busy cracker this year.
*sigh*
I'm not really looking forward to this year at all. I have to buck up or duck out I suppose, but you know me, I can't admit defeat for the life of me. I guess I'll just have to stick to my guns and hold out this year as best as I can. Joy. So Sammi, you got your damn entry. Now I can't tell if I feel better or worse for it. Hope your happy.
Quote of the Week: If ignorance is bliss, then why aren't more people happy?
and to make up for the past weeks: If at first you don't succeed, then sky diving is probably not for you.
and,
Sarcasm; The bodies natural defense against stupid
 redrum and wine · Thu Aug 31, 2006 @ 10:05pm · 1 Comments |
