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Forget the poem for now. I'm annoyed at people. Why are they so stupid and emotional? For christ's sake grow up. Love makes such fools of people. Turns the greatest of us to naive children. People speak of their great loves, more so when teens. For a teen, love doesn't really exsist.

For a teen now and days, not to completely sterotypical but majority are in relationships for sex and that's all. Love? They think only of physical love. What has happened to the morals of society? It is pathetic.

Back to my main thing. I've decided the relationship I had is over and I want nothing to do with him. Besides, for not proclaiming to jealous, saying I just wanted to date someone seemed to set him off. It's not like we were even dating to begin with. So techincaly I'm free to date if I want. See...that's the thing. I felt bad for wanting to date anyone else. Looking back I realize how stupid it makes me look. We've never even met in real life. For all I knew he could be dating, doing drugs, smoking, beating people, whatever else.

And yet his comments in return, after trying to be so 'polite' and such is rather vulgur. Perhaps two-faced? Oh well...now there's not the stress of concern, besides I have my friends I can confide in, who needs love? Not I.

Ever wonder though, what it would b elike to date someone? I mean, seriously, but then you're too shy to do anything. Like all of you are open and perverts and just do what(almost literaly) yet it's like 'No I can't ask them out' type of thing. It seems like it makes your weak or maybe it's my own veiw.

Immature responses to things, that lately is my major annoyance. Can people not realize how stupid the guilty, 'Poor me, I'm the victim' thing is? Or swearing to the heavens. Swearing shows the lack of vocabulary and intelligance to put up an arguement. The pity act shows that you are weak and can't live for yourself. In all honestly, why do people think it works?

I do not know. My friends say it's better this way and I don't feel as much of a burden on my shoulders, however in the smallest atom of regret. Though that has been thus extinguished(sp). After all, with the friends I've made, and my close friends I have. I don't need him anymore. Who cares? He can say or do whatever. Threaten me, himself, or anyone else. I have my close friends who care about me and that's all I really need right now. However it just wasn't until now that I realized how much I depend and can count on them. To my dearest friends(I am sure you know who you are): Thank you, for everything.

~Shadow of Fire

"I found a way
To steal the sun from the sky
Long live that day
That I decided to fly from the inside" Fly from the Inside- Shinedown