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	*falls on the floor crying*
	*falls on the floor crying*


why why why... i dont know anymore...i just want to die. My dad is leaving back to vergina the first week of august. my mom is having a person come look at the house to see how much to sell it for. I keep feeling like i want to cut my self or something. but over all i cant stop crying right now. i keep listening to family portrate from pink and it makes me cry to. I feel like im being emo and i cant help it. all i know is that this is the last forth of july that i will get to spend with the whole family. and what i want over all i just want someone to hold me and not let go. some one that can be their. vivi is my master · Wed Jul 05, 2006 @ 06:49am · 17 Comments


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	Sorry I cant hold you, that'd be kinda weird sweatdrop . Sorry to hear about your problems and hope everything works out good. But be glad you've had a chance to have your whole family with you at some point. It took me 13 years to have a whole family. . . . and its tough having a dad far away I know 3nodding But life is never perfect, and it has it's rough times. INsted of sulking around listening to Pink (DAMN YOU EMOTIONAL SONGS! scream ), you should enjoy all that you have. Going emo on yourself don't solve crap 3nodding And no matter where you move, you'll aways have friends. So get up, give life the finger, and go get urself a dancing llama dramallama Offline MasterChi-Ken · Community Member · Wed Jul 05, 2006 @ 07:12am


	I agree with Master Chi-ken on many levels (But sometimes emotional music isn't always bad.) but I would have to question about the dancing llama. Going emo will get you no where. You may notbe able ot be with family.. but hey, that's part of the reason that we have internet. I'd advise you to listen to the Numa Numa song... You need it. I'm trying to get on more often but hey, sometimes I can't.. so brighten up. It'll get better.. maybe not now.. but soon. and I know EXACTLY how you feel about not having someone to hold you or to hold.. I'm going through that myself. Sincerely, Vezerini Corozan Offline Vezerini Corozan · Community Member · Wed Jul 05, 2006 @ 08:09am


	im going to send u a pm X3 Offline kirbyrocks101 · Community Member · Wed Jul 05, 2006 @ 08:22am


	I don't know. A dancing llama always made me feel better. . . then again almost everything edible or fuzzy does. . . . oh well sweatdrop And emotinal music isn't bad, but listening to "So sick" after breaking up with your GF sux. . . alot. . . NEVER AGAIN! crying Well again hope everything works out and your Gaian friends as well as your friends in tha real world r there for ya. 3nodding DANCE NUMA NUMA LLAMA DANCE! dramallama dramallama dramallama dramallama dramallama dramallama dramallama dramallama dramallama dramallama dramallama dramallama Ahhhh, good ol' Dragonstea din Tei. . . . . thank u Ozone, thank you. Offline MasterChi-Ken · Community Member · Wed Jul 05, 2006 @ 09:05am


	man, i feel horrible for you! i dont remember how me and u met, but all i can say is just dont do anything crazy. u just have to move on with ur life, and hope for the best. i know ur gonna hate this comment, cuz when something bad happens to me when ppl say everything is gonna be okay i get incredibly angry like they dont understand. but thats the truth, in times like these u have to stay positive other wise things are just going to suck more. i hope everything works out for you! heart heart heart Offline Flatulent Mama · Community Member · Wed Jul 05, 2006 @ 05:29pm


	i am so sorry i know how you feel my dad has been sleeping on the couch for a year and all it is is fighting im here for you if you ever want to talk ok? i wish i could be there for you, but im here, that's all that matters you're a great person, you can get through this. dont worry. Offline kazu_oblivion · Community Member · Wed Jul 05, 2006 @ 06:48pm


	Hey, I'm so sorry to hear that. I know what your going through. I had to do the same thing about 6 months ago. I moved from a small town to the city of San Diego CA. I had to leave alot of people, momories, and stuff behind. But there is an always a good thing moving, you meet different people. Get friends, everything. You may get home sick every once in a while but their will always be someone there for you. No mather if it's your mother, friends, bf/gf, pet, whatever. Just make the best of a bad thing. I'll always be here for you. So don't worry. Kay? Love Ya Kaoru-Chan. Offline Kaoru_The_Dark_Ninja · Community Member · Wed Jul 05, 2006 @ 08:29pm


	plz try to see the good there may not be much but still plz try not to focus on the bad Offline Xelloss the king · Community Member · Wed Jul 05, 2006 @ 08:52pm


	You should never want to die, that's giving up and being cowardly.. and I know you aren't. I understand entirely the fear and illness you feel because of the drastic change, but change happens and you shouldn't fear the future. "Whatever lies beyond this morning is a little later on. Regardless of warnings, the future doesn't scare me at all.. nothing's like before." Don't listen to songs that remind you of sadness, that's foolish and you know it. Listen to something upbeat, happy.. because you need to not let yourself get depressed. Not during the summer, not now. Just no. I'll be the one to hold you if you wish, because it's not like it's something we haven't done before. But I can't be there forever because others need me too. But I'll help you when I can. Offline Hikareh · Community Member · Wed Jul 05, 2006 @ 09:34pm


	Aww sweetie just try not to concentrate on the bad, and just enjoy the time you have left with your family and don't worry, just let it all flow. Offline Rini2612 · Community Member · Thu Jul 06, 2006 @ 02:29am


	thank you everyone i didnt know how many people actually care about me.but now i do. ^.^ my mood is getting better because of that and i decided to stop listening to that for a little while. now to find someone to cuddle ^.^ Offline vivi is my master · Community Member · Thu Jul 06, 2006 @ 04:50am


	I'm always up for cuddling, but sadly love you live to damn far away. ****** that drices me crazy cause I wnat you in many more way then just one and I just hate seeing you all down. It's get's be worryinga nd that's not good. I don't want any grey hairs at the age of 17, now come on. Well it's good to hear your feeling better, hopefully it stays that way. Kaoru The Dark Ninja Offline Kaoru_The_Dark_Ninja** · Community Member · Thu Jul 06, 2006 @ 05:12am


	im sorry that i worried you and yeah it would be better if you did live close.^.^ then you wouldnt be as lonley to. Offline vivi is my master · Community Member · Thu Jul 06, 2006 @ 05:20am


	Yeah I know. Oh well hopefully I'll get someone soon, hopefully. Maybe you'll find someone after you move, who knows. Huggles and kisses you on the cheek Love Kaoru-Kun Offline Kaoru_The_Dark_Ninja · Community Member · Thu Jul 06, 2006 @ 05:47am


	I don't know if you got my message but I sincerely hope that you did... I'll be here to talk anytime alright? I hope things get better for you soon. ::Huggles:: ^^ Kadaj Offline Kadaj_The_Nightmare · Community Member · Fri Jul 07, 2006 @ 02:14am


	Life is hard. And sometimes...we may even give it. But you know? Everything will turn out ok? You know? Because we're all here. Me, Rami, Sushi, Chris...all of us. Offline SOLDIER Conspiracy · Community Member · Sat Jul 08, 2006 @ 04:04am


	Awww I'm really sorry I know how you feel, maybe be not exactly but generall i do. My parents cuss each other bad they are so bad that i actually want them to divorce now. I broke my own heart by breaking someone elses (only person i ever loved), that how bad i broke theirs. and i feel really bad. yeah im not in the best situation at the moment either so yeah. my mom cant work b/c all that wrong with her and my dad does drugs. it sucks i have scars from cutting but i wouldnt do it its not the best it simply stops the crying i realized that. but it still comes back. need someone to talk to though ill be glad to. =) Offline xXxDarkiexXx · Community Member · Mon Jul 17, 2006 @ 10:25am

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