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The feeling of knowing that the rest of your life is going to be so bad that death would be a dream come true, just to stop heartache...why dose it seem to be so twisted? and fate seems to think that i like to be hurt more then needed. way before i stop to injoy life as it is, but to worry about my self and my feelings. all my thoughts and feelings are runing to gether and all i feel is pain. the pain that was put there by you, and yet you still have to ask why, why are you so sad, why are you crying, and why arint you happy to see me. still you look at me with distane.. and not seeing why i am this way makes it painful more so. i realy do wish that fate had been on myside and brought me more hope in to thinking that the world would be just. some times i catch myself wishing of a swift death and every one would forget .. Who i was.. What i was.. and How i was.. just a easly as i had died. sad thing is the hardist part is not that dying would be hard.. its that living is harder.. and from this i should grow stronger.. and you shall see you have not broken me.. for i am, and will all ways be un-broken.