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today i felt as though i was going to die,we had another fight again that made my eyes run dry.today i woke in terror that wat we had was lost,and i came to u and tried to restore wat we had no matter the cost.i felt you heart was aching,and even close to breaking.i failed to do my job and protect your heart,when really i was the one who held on too tight and almost made it fall apart.somehow i feel as though ive lost part of myself,that can never be restored with many things or by great wealth.i want to apologize to you in any way i can,for you are the greatest man.and you do deserve better then this stupid girl you love,you fail to see shes not really the angel from above.she tries her best to be perfect in every single way, but perfection is not something you can master within only a few days.if i could id keep your heart under lock and key,but then i would feel as though u must always belong to me.i want us to be close but i dont want to smother you, if you feel you need some air i will let you be alone and do the things you want to do.i love you; and im starting to think i love too much,because i have become dependent on your kiss and touch.today made me realize that if i lose you then i will have nothing left once more, my heart that will remain will forever remain a closed door.never again to see the lovely light, that made my love for you oh so bright.a lifeless doll with nothing but a heart so sore,that it would be hard to believe that it could ever be known as pure.she watches herself in the mirror,and sees her biggest fear.herself alone in pain,her eyes telling her she caused her love some more pain again.my love i know you will be the first to read this,i want you to know how much i long for your kiss.how much i want you touch,i need you to know that i will always love you this much.i love you,and i promise to do the best for you that i can possibly do.