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June 6, 2006
It really is too bad the world didn't end today like crazy people thought it would. It would have been convenient for me. Kaz still seems to blame me for him failing college and all that crap, and his parents won't leave him alone. I'm debating again if I should email his mom. She never answered my first email about him coming here. I feel like they're making things worse for him, and ultimately me. But I dunno what I'd even say. I can't tell someone's parents what to do or anything. But whatever they're doing to him is driving him insane and it makes me worry. And even after the crap last night Kaz still wants to continue with the stupid week crap. If it will make him happy fine. As long as he doesn't needlessly extend it. And as long as Jon isn't the one in charge of it. He won't even talk to me, but that's a good thing. I honestly don't care about him anymore. And if Ivy's going to follow them, then so be it. I won't feel sorry for her if anything happens between her and Ralph, because she's been a real jerk while I'm going through something horrible. Neither of them would even talk to Nebby I don't think, and she was only on for a little bit. Ivy might have talked to her in IM, I have no idea. But they're all being rediculous. At least Kaz came to our chat. Didn't say much, other than saying I still couldn't talk to him. I'm just trying to focus on Kaz coming back to me. I had a weird dream last night about avoiding Aystyn, and that is exactly what I'm doing. I dunno. It was just weird. I'm still confused about him and what to do. I had an appointment today at the college and I was afraid I'd run into him there like I did last time. Luckily I didn't. But my mom just wanted to go everywhere, to the bookstore, the library, but at least she took me home and didn't insist on going in the library or anywhere else when I said I wanted to go home. I think she was a little annoyed, she doesn't really know why I wanted to leave, and I didn't feel like talking about it. She's always concerned with finding out what books I'm going to need for my classes and trying to see how hard it will be and stuff. I added another class to my schedule at the appointment. So that's four. I don't know if I'm going to drop one of them or not. I just feel like I'm never going to finish college, but then I dunno if four is too many for me to handle at once. I mean I see what happened to Kaz.
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