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So I just left a hidden note to someone that I hope they find if I ever pass before my time. I'm not telling anyone where it is, or that it even exists, but I trust those around me enough that, were something to happen, they would sort my affairs and come across it.

Extra closure for them? Maybe. I wonder if it's more for me than anyone else though. Even if the note is never found, at least it helps me sleep at night knowing that I may have gotten one last word into a conversation that had really already ended. I know we're not supposed to think about the fragility of life, but by nature, I'm the type who can't not worry about it.

I worry a lot. Maybe I get it from my mom. I'm not so much a pessimistic as much as I like planning for the worst. Most of the time I don't believe the often ridiculous "what if" situations that come to mind, but in any case, I'm always at least thinking what I would do, even in those crazy situations. That note is just another one of them.

I don't really like thinking about death in particular though. There's no real "preparing" for a good death outcome. Honestly the note maybe one of the least crazy scenarios since no one lives forever. As long as it's there, maybe I can forget. "Good enough." I say. Onto the next problem.