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Annie also known as Anxiety

My first battle with Anxiety just might have to been when I first entered middle school in a different city. It wasn't just the normal nervousness you feel when you first enter a place you've never been, meeting a whole lot of strangers.

No, I was completely out of my element. I went from preppy middle classed neighborhood, where nothing bad ever occurred. To low class slums, where the cops were called on a hourly basis.

And I don't judge, it's not where you come from, it's what you make of yourself. But I didn't know what kind of people I was going to have to deal with. I guess I was more or less worried about people were going to react to me.

I am of a certain race that is highly looked down upon, and I try not to let it dictate how I am as a person. My personality just happens to be the opposite of my skin color. And I get ridiculed no matter what. I get so scared sometimes, because I act just like how me would. I don't act this way, or that way. Just me.

And I was so anxious that I was going to be bullied for not acting my race, I got knots in my stomach, and my muscles were so tense. It felt like I was being drenched in ice for hours, nonstop.

Until I started talking to people. Letting them hear the way I speak formally, and act maturely. I knew no other way, and they accepted that.

Anxiety happens to be a daily struggle for me, just because I over think just about everything. But eventually, Annie will be tolerable.

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