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If the shoe fits wear it

Ever since we broke up I've learned about myself, and you. Some good, some bad on my part, but I'm working on it to better myself as a person, but you? Yeah, I've got you figured out. You pretty much act sweet and innocent to manipulate people to get your ways. And throughout our relationship you pretty much bullshitted me, manipulated me, and lied to me pretty much the whole time. On top of that you let your insecurities get to you. I was barely putting anything in the relationship, I wasn't even giving you half of me and yet it was more than enough. You gave me all you had and it was more than enough, but then when we went out you pretty much bullshitted me by halfassing me, giving me nothing and saying you tried. Eventually that insecurity within yourself grew so large that you built up walls and instead of talking it out to me like anybody else would do, like anyone in a relationship should do you just fed into miscommunication and that plus your insecurities were the downfall to whatever we had, which honestly whatever we had is out of the picture and out of the mind. So when you broke up with me you said that we were just friends but lets get real here, you only said that to make yourself feel better as a person, and in doing so you brought me down.

For a while there , I was confused; thinking it was me and not you, like I ******** u in the relationship for once and not the other way around, but then I figured it out ;p
When I asked if there was another you also lied about that too. Whenever I wanted to talk things out you just totally blocked me out. Why? So you wouldn't slip up and say too much. You said you cared about me but like I said,actions speak louder than words. You pretty much kept your distance in every sort of way because you knew I would figure it out eventually. Anyone who cared about me would have actually talked to me but you said nothing really. All I got was nothing. Like I said, your insecurities and your walls got to you. Now I'm sorry that you feel so sorry and shitty for yourself that you have to do things like that, inevitably destroying any relationship you have ever had in the process and yourself from the inside. Which must be trivial considering you don't give a ********....

So basically you lied, bullshitted me, manipulated me, and used me for whatever purposes you saw fit, and then threw me aside because you couldn't face yourself. I remember texting you and you said that I thought you were a piece of s**t, and I never said that but if the shoe fits wear it b***h.

· Mon Aug 05, 2013 @ 05:52pm · 0 Comments


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