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April 18, 2006
I am so sick of stupid online drama. It's stupid and it's pointless. One thing I'm thankful for is that I don't have this kind of crap to put up in real life for the most part. My friends don't pull that kind of crap in real life. But people online do and when it's online it's even more rediculous, just for the fact that it's online. And then my real life friends might get dragged into it. So it gets really stupid. I guess Ivy isn't talking to me now, or something stupid like that. I made a chat and she didn't come in. And yet Ralph did. She did finally come in when Nebby got on, but shortly after Nebby had to go she left without saying why. So I guess, just because I told her something she said about Kaz yesterday wasn't funny, she's not talking to me. That is so lame. I'm not even mad at her. I'm not mad at Ralph for whatever the hell she thought I was mad at him about either. If anything I'm mad at Kaz because he doesn't have the dencency to act like he should to avoid all this mess. But it really isn't just him. I really feel like everyone is out to ruin things for us. Everything was just fine, until stupid Gabe had to go and ruin it all by making our relationship public knowledge. And while I do want people to know, I want Kaz to act like it too, which he doesn't do, and it creates problems. I don't know why but it's like ever since I got with him, frickin six years ago, everyone's been out to break us apart. It's like I'm not allowed to have a boyfriend. People have a problem with it if I'm in love with someone. I don't see this happening to other people. It's like people have to go and take sides. They either hate me, or they hate Kaz. Or if they're friends with us both, they choose one of us and makes a big deal out of how we treat the other. Ivy decided that I don't treat Kaz right. And Jenna and Nebby, my real life friends, decided that Kaz doesn't treat me right. And I think Jon is with Ivy on her viewpoint, and Rachel doesn't seem to like him too much but I'm not sure. I don't know why people can't leave it alone. And of course Gabe with the whole thing back then. He felt like Kaz didn't treat me right, and I guess he felt like he could do better. Which he can't because he went and pretty much showed me I can't trust him. But you know, Gabe liked me. So I could see why he had a motive to try to break me and Kaz up. But these other people, there's no reason that I can figure that they are doing it, and I wish they'd leave well enough alone. I have a hard enough time with this relationship, with trying to be a good girlfriend to Kaz, and not piss him off or anything, and then it's like people want to make it harder for me or something. It's like people don't want me to be happy, they want me to just be pissed off and alone and not have a boyfriend or anyone to love. I guess I will just wait until Ivy decides not to be mad anymore, just like I do with everyone else when they get this way... Last time it was Jon. rolleyes At least she hasn't blocked me like he did. Yet anyways. At least things are going alright with me and Kaz. We're sitting in his house on towns at his table... But he's busy playing his video games. And I've got all this stupid homework and crap.
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