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I try to ignore my flaws to the best of my abilities. I'm perfectly aware of them, though, so it's not as if I'm trying to deny them. I just get embarrassed when they're noticed, either by me or someone else.
I'm worrisome, selfish, temperamental, annoying, hurtful, judgmental, assuming, lazy, ignorant, vain, overeager, poor at planning for the long-term, demanding, guilty, and many other ones that I'm sure will pop right into my mind after I've posted this entry and force me to return to edit them in.
Many times I act rashly or without thinking, but more often I act with little thinking and curse when, in hindsight, I shouldn't have said "I don't care" but "This will be the best thing to do because such-and-such". Reprimanding myself doesn't do much though, not even to ease my guilt a fraction. I've already messed up and now I'll have to deal with it immediately, sooner, or later.
Usually I take a deep breath and tell myself that it'll be in the past but I worry because I know what I have to go through before that point. It should bring some relief, and it does, although not enough. Soon after that I screw up yet again and have to deal with it.
--Ty
 Ty Gwynnia · Thu Aug 23, 2012 @ 08:13pm · 0 Comments |
