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i lost my best friend... i know its my fault, i know he hates me, i know there is nothing i can do about it at this point. but non the less it hurts. i lost my best friend.
Prince was the fist person in a long time that get to meet the real me. not the person that the rest of my coworkers meet. the girl with the flows, sarcastic, a prankster. the drunk, the lush, the vindictive and loyal . he know the real me and i know the real him. i know he so well that its still hard to hide a smirk when i hear the new girls talking about the pretty boy that works down stairs. i know that pretty boys secrets, his weakness and flows ...but as vindictive as i normally would be, i dont want to hurt him again. i hate that he hates me. i hate when he walks in to the room and pretend I'm not there. i hate the remarks behind my back that he knows will get back to me. i wish i could tell him im sorry or tell him its as much his fault as it was mine. but i have a feeling that our friendship meant more to me then it did to him. i cant change what he did and i wouldn't take back what i did.
all the times i said i loved you, i meant it.
i hope that some for him.
i lost my best friend and there is nothing i can do.

..................why do i write this and not tell him?
it wont change a thing. it wouldn't matter to him.