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Well i guess i have to move on...and hurt my everything. I wont see myself as who i am anymore...I guess this is call...Goodbye to my all..





There is something that didnt make see myself as who i am and that is love. Without it, I won't be able to smile forever. Although, i thought it is easy to forget it and have fun with your life. But it isnt. I found myself lonely and i have no one to talk to. There my friends and i could be left out anytime. When i lay down on the bed, i cant think but him. * wont say the name * Why you have to be everywhere on my mind? Cant you see im missing you? How can you left our true happiness. Even though i knew it already or i repeated myself too many times, why i am waiting for you? Why can't i face you and say these 3 words that i'm holding for so long. How come you cant see me.. If i have a choice to prove that, I would be alone and start over without love or happiness. I will not search or wait. I will be not myself and give my hope to the people. Or when i feel like i need to show someone when i feel lonely that how much i care about you, I will tell them a story but it will affect me and my feelings...

When im on the computer, i was excepting for you to come back and hold me forever. With you, i feel safe. With you on my mind, it gives me a luck on anything i want to try.


But now you think of me as a friend. I dont have a word or aruge to respond that. If that what you want...fine with me. I guess i understand it. Being friends is what makes you happy. We could be best friend i guess. I am happy...just the way it is...- Oh im not crying...it just tears of joy..OH WHAT GIVES, I miss you okay? I dont want to loose someone that makes me happy for the first time. I dont want to get hurt like when you said it. Maybe being friends is what makes happy than being love. Right or Wrong you won't see me smiling.