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Its been months and i've moved on. I need days...months...to get over my dperession and be myself. It does take times but i couldnt handle my depression. It made me loose myself and not to believe anything but saddness. I didnt believe it till the time has come to stop it. Yet i want to cry everyday...every moment...just to remove the pain in my heart but i fight my tears and smile. Sometimes i didnt feel any tear in my eye. I want to forget what i've done so it wouldnt come back. When my depression is gone, i felt all better but i do miss someone somehow. But what gives i need to move on and forget the past
Although the memories cant be destroyed no matter. When i have time to look at these precious memories...it made me want the past to become present. Do i want my old happiness back or get a new happiness...? Well that is really tough question but as day move then i'll get some answer or hints. I always felt like i need someone but no one haven't told me so i have to find it myself. It did cost my happiness but it can regain it right?
Well i did get everything.....or is there something i miss? Like my mind said, what i got nothing to loose or to keep it and you must live with or without it.