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I really don't know what to think anymore.

For the past couple of days, I have been going crazy.
I wondered for two days whether or not people would care if I died.
I feel like I can't speak without being argued with or contradicted.
I can't speak my mind because more drama unfolds, and it is never a calm conversation.
I want to go see Otep in concert.
I'm worried that I will fail at life and fail all of my classes.
And my fingertips are cold.

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Suffocating
As the breath of cold air
slithers down my throat
Black and blue
clutching at a nonexistent grasp
as the darkness envelops my
environment

for me, there is no heaven
only hell
for the unrepented sin
for the questioned sexuality
for the momentary hate
towards You.
I will burn
the flames snaking around my unpure soul
as the flesh becomes rubber
and slips from my bone
Only to rejuvenate
and become whole again
and watch the process
restart.

domokun