hey again well im sad...................because im unsatified with my life when i couldnt ask for a better life!! i mean i what to tell my freinds ABOUT ME insted of what i like or dislike or my favorit color exc. but im afraid of there reaction to the real me like thay mite do that "its not a big deal" or "your not the first" or "OMG kara im so sorry we'll treat you speshel for now on!" and im already treated speshal i dont need any more i gess i realy just want them to ASK if im doing somthing like that and why and listen calmly and ASK me about my past and how i got this way just for once. yes its a PAIN IN THE a** to wait to be ASKED but that just makes it easyer for me to talk if im spusificly asked too i will and if im not asked and just start talking about myself and problems without a reason then i'll fell like im whining about things that i cant change unless i work realy hard and i HATE to work so i see no piont complaining if im not willing enought to change myself.....and well i gess i just want them to (my friends) know that im an indivigual and i dont just sit there and listen but is willing to work inorder to help others, because i realy dont care about my self anymore so im going to cancintrat on other things like helping others!!! and you know what im tiered of people just complaining and never doing somthing about it or asking my advice at least (and that means my true advice and oppinon that mite hurt or mite not be ture but i just want to be heard and listened to!) so i can help even just a little bit!! in other word we count on God to give the mericle but what we dont understand is that we can be the merical! (yes i got that from the movie "Bruce Almity"but its true!) so yea TTFN (Ta TA For Now)
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