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hey peeps i know its been a long time (again) since i wrote but i just found out that im mentaly unbalanced sweatdrop you know depression sweatdrop sweatdrop sweatdrop well its severe depression but oh well the world is very twisted that way is it not? 3nodding but now i have an excuse to look sad people just wont beleve me that me face is naturaly sad i was born that way so stop asking twisted mabey when i grow up i'll just wright a depressing book about it it will be called "The Crap Of Life Which Is My Life" whee it would be fun to see the look on all my friends faceses when thay see that sunshine Tasha has a depression problem wink or any problem at all for that matter mad i gess thay think the only emotion i feel is happy happy happy evil but damnit i rarly feel happy i may look happy but on the inside im screaming something elts scream most of the time im angry, sad, lonly, annoyed, or depressed cry but thare too busy complaning about thare own lives to notest that im not happy stressed anyone can see it in my eyes and i slip sometimes and let some emotion out and thay dont notice scream and thay weren't the ones who stoped me from killing myself no i was saved by the TV!!!! i was that lonly crying but then i met ambie and she told me that killing yourself is taking the easy way out it was like running away form somthing you can live through and get over thats the only noble way to do things is to stick it out sit tight and live through and get out alive but now shes cutting herself crying and shes moveing again and she'll be to far to reach crying crying crying and i'll never be there for her and one day she mite cut to deep and leave this world and and and i cant let that happen cry but if someone that strong has giving up all hope than how the hell will i be able to.... to..... to resist going the same way crying crying well its time to eat lunch so i'll wright soon sad TTFN (ta ta for now)