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I understand why he moved on….I understand why he want to be friends with me…I didn’t see with it with my eyes open. I’m blind to look at it. Another stupid mistake I did cause my heart to cry a lot and more pain I’m receiving than I have.

I should let him go since I love him so much. I want to make both of us happy and teach him what love really is. I guess were not meant to be together forever. I’m actually happy to see the person he really loves with. I hope two of them would last forever..Maybe this is the only choice I have for him to be happy. Its better for us and i was very blind that day.....I couldnt get him back cause i've lost him right now...


As for me…I will let the pain continue to grow as the day moves on. I shall no longer be smiling completely. I got used to be alone all day. There a lot of happiness out there. I know there is. I’m just sad to look for it. Although my heart cant get over him, I cant stop crying every time I see or think about him. It hurts terribly. I tried and tried to get over it and was trying to move on but that precious memory wont stop me from moving on.

I guess I was afraid to face this pain alone. With pain, sorrow, and depressing I have, I wont get to see my dream and my happiness. I guess this is how you get to save someone’s happiness. I dont like doing this but i have no choice but to do this. I wont be happy with this...


Don’t worry about me you should be worry about yourself, some of your others friends or your loves one. I will try to get over it. I may be brave enough but this pain wont go away forever…Its killing me and hurting me harder

By then….Be happy for me. Smile for me. Your happiness makes me happy but not on the inside....