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Lately, I have been finding myself tearing up whenever I talk to people. It is really weird especially for me since I never cry. I have made it a goal for myself to never shed tears no matter what, yet I find myself doing so and for no reason. It annoys me when I get emotional. I hardly dwell on sad things since I rather spend my time and focus on the happy things in life. Life was meant to be lived not feared. It was meant to be explored not hidden (nice theme for a poem =3).

Anyways, I noticed this emotional flaw yesterday and today while I was volunteering at a church to help feed the needy in my community for Christmas. I found myself having an excellent time there (for the fourth time). I got to speak with the guy that I have in my classes and underclassmen. I met all types of other volunteers ranging in all ages. There was this one older guy that had awesome eyes. Stuff like that. Then on my way home afterwards, I could not stop from crying. I was not even sad or anything. The same thing happened when I was talking to my mother. All of a sudden, I had the urge to cry and barely held it back till I was alone in my room.


There, I ranted it all out. I kinda feel better too but not really. =T