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Yeah, this ones for you Sammi!
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As expected, only a few of the most loyal of friends came, meaning buck, kasey, and lauren were there. Others obviously though, weren't.
I was expecting 2 others that I didn't want to miss it and actually come, like Sammi and Hannah.
Hannah has some kind of excuse though, shes probably passed out on either brad's couch drunk, or at Sam's house high. So, I semi-forgive her.
But some things are just unforgivable.
Kasey got out of grounding to come.
The least some people could have done was call and tell me they weren't comming, like I asked them to.
So, Monday, You all will be getting your commupance. Josh, who said he would definitely be here, Asians who are now nameless to me who I told to call and at least tell me they weren't comming, and stoners, both patience and hannah who said they would definitely be here. Yeah, so all of you....except for hannah, are now on my black list/s**t list. Sammi can put me on there for poking her, then I can sure as hell put her on mine. So there!
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Most of my anger though is directed towards my father, who I didn't even get a call from!!!! But then again, I got a valentine's day card from him with $20 in it, so I guess that he's hit the maximum budget on his daughter already. I guess i'll get another card from him on my 19th or 20th birthday, hell, maybe it'll be on the right day this year because I got the valnetine's one 3 weeks late. ******** b*****d. He can't keep doing this to me. Every time I hear from him, even though I tell myself he won't do it again and hope against all hope that he'll remember this time, that I actually do exist to him, he goes around and leaves me out in the cold again. All my life, the one thing I've ever wanted back was my father. We could be dirt poor and living out in a trailer somewhere, but if I had my dad back, my abusive b*****d of a dad, then I would be happy. I'm a ******** up emotional, man-killing, heart-breaking, finiky, un-trusting, overly-cautious, bi-polar, roller coaster of a b***h because of him!!!! He's the reason why I can never get involved with anyone, despite the offers I do get, because no matter what, I feel like they're out to hurt me or betray me, so I hurt them before they can hurt me. Its the same with everyone! Not just guys! I hate him because he's made me this way. But I'm stuck with it, so I guess that I'll just throw a cigarette and some vodka in there to dull the pain a little bit.
On another note, we didn't have time to get my permit today, so I'm going next Saturday when we don't have a lacrosse game to get it. I hope I pass.
So, happy birthday to me!!!! I'm now 16!!!!!!
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-Tani
 redrum and wine · Sun Mar 12, 2006 @ 06:59am · 3 Comments |
