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((this is from yesterday when i wasn't thinking so striaght the al-bhed was a way for me to express what i wanted without others knowing but i don't care right now i've delt with it i think))

it's not that dramatic or that "bad" but it's bad enough to me that i lied to my boyfriend but i had to cause he was leaving and i already knew that. and yes there was something wrong with me but i was being over emotional and i don't have a freakin clue why i am...(start from here) i wanted to talk to some one but he was busy and i didn't want to bug him i hinted but then i just snapped into you say no and get out of it he needs to go and you should have said something earlyer
but i was to afriad cause i had been all complainy and blah before. I don't like the fact i lied but, the other part was he had to go and i knew that and i will not make him stay to listen to something that i shouldn't be so upset over anyways.

Today

I was not in much of a caring mood today though i was fine, math class was bit of fun since i was working with one of my friends XD we wanted to kill our math books since the questions were trying to trick us... the bastards! lol though we ^__^ got all the questions done and ahve no homework XD
after school i phone my mom to pick me up but instead of getting to go home i had to go to the hospital since we had to take my grandma there. I was hyper at times and like my mom said i was a pain in the a** XD oh well least i had some fun while i was there... though it got worse and i really wanted to get out of there and get home to get my homework done and talk to my teddy. I had been there for about four or five hours... I feel sort of sick now but hopefully it's just cause of being in there for so long... though i sort of wanted to pass out due to some blood needing to be taken out of my grandmother's arms... man did i feel queezy and blah... but after a little bit not to long i was fine i even got to hold a vile of blood XD i wanted to steal it >.> lol odd i can stand most forms of seeing blood and not get ill and yet when a needle is draining it out i feel like i want to pass out... hmmm oh well.
I miss talking to my teddy, and wished i could have today but unfortunatly the i couldn't oh well he was busy studying. I was suprise and a little hurt but there was no need it just was with the shock cause what if i was really in the hospital for something and he didn't notice to care but lol that doesn't matter cause i wasn't ^__^ so need to give him a scare like that. Though i hope i don't ahve to go tomorrow cause i might end up sick i already feel a little blah. meh i'll get over it ^__^ lol writinig this all out helps hmm ^___^;; okay now i'm being weirdly random so i shall update another time XD
but before i go
IT'S SNOWING! well was but wasn't sticking except to the cars >< XD lol thats what happens when living in Vancouver