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What is a friend..is it someone who you can sit and talk to on the phone for 3 - 6 hours at a time? Is it someone that you can talk to about your problems of love though they love you? or is it simply someone who will love you for who you are and never leave you or promise never to leave? The answer is they can be all of the above and still not be your friend, they may not leave you but that does not mean they want you to be around them. Ive lost alot of friends recently..people that simply told me that I made them depressed after a while, or saw me as a toy, or something that was unnecessary that became something that was unwanted. Many ask me to trust, and I do..to a point, I will never let anyone close enough to hurt me. It's not that I dont trust you, it's that I have no reason to let you that close to me, to my being, you do not need to understand me to be close to me. Everyone that I love, or have loved knows less about me than I do them, and it shall stay that way. If Ive ever told you anything personal, anything deep, anything true Ive made a mistake that I am willing to live with. I may be incapable of love because someone once said, love is giving someone the ability to destroy you, but trusting them not to..I will not be destroyed..I will sit and watch it all crumble to dust..and then..make a sandcastle from it.