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It's funny the emotions people feel. Love, or at least the illusion of love can drive many otherwise rational people to do such stupid things. I was talking to a good friend on MSN about how I had a dream where I sent her ex feet first through a wood chipper. She seemed rather amused by this idea. Now 6 months ago if I had said this she would have been really pissed off because he meant so much to her. Love turns to hate and that hate can make you just as stupid sometimes.

I look at myself and I haven't really felt that kind of love. Sure there are people I find attractive, but I've never really felt a bond with them. Some might think that is pathetic that someone as old as I am haven't been in love at least once. I think it's a good thing. The illusion of love has made so many people act so stupid I don't want to throw my otherwise decent logic down the drain.

Hatred on the other hand I've got plenty of. I frequently have dreams where I harm or even kill others which half the time have done nothing to me. I look around and I feel like humanity should die. Obviously there is a lot of bitterness here, but I don't think it's gotten the better of me yet. I've never hurt anyone or even threatened to no matter how much I think about it. I also keep in mind there are a lot of good people left in this world. Unfortunately there are just so many people I dislike that it outweighs the good people.