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Today, just a normal day... Just like any other... Except... I have not been mocked in a while until today. Of all days... Why today? On a day where I am mad...angry...depressed... Why me? I just sat down in chorus and started reading since there was still 3 minutes till class would begin... I was just sitting there reading until a guy comes up and... Tells me to move so he can sit. And of course... I say "Grab another chair..." So he stares at me weird while I started reading again... Does he think I'm deaf? Blind? I guess so... He mocks me in a weird voice... That pissed me off so... And he flipped me the bird too. I just sat there... Yes I did... Trouble is not me... And that boy... I bet he is. I try to keep my distance but he's always there. I pay no attention until he makes a rude remark or ect... But still I do nothing... I am defenseless... I am...
Just leave me be, and maybe I wouldn't be this way. Every morning I wake up angry, not ready or willing to face the day. I just want to stay put the whole day, not moving... anything...nothing... My will is weak, no longer strong as it once was. Months ago I was just fine... Until he walked out of my life. I blame it all on me, myself and I... It was though... It was. I guess I see now...It was me who left... I sit wasting away, waiting to see if he'll show up someday. My hopes once high, are now down low... My life seems to be going oh so slow... I want to go back and fix everything. I know I can't, but I can't let this be! Back then I was happy... Or was I? I can't remember... I can only remember things that had happened... No feelings are left... It pains me...Inside and out... Those cuts on my arms... They shouldn't be here, and neither should I... I'm just a screw up, let's leave it at that...